Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Entry for this afternoon
why is this happening?
i thought i walked out of the circle 4 yrs ago..
Reminiscing it seems, hope's not..
The first relapse occurred last week
information gathered in the wrong way
and transmit through nerves and eventually smack right onto my heart..
it's worst than an asthma attack,
information that leads to nowhere haunting me..
it's like an injection of temporary depression shot right into the heart..
Head's experiencing migraine, eyes are heavy, throat's dry, hands & legs weak, knees wobbling
Perhaps it's not what i think it is, probably because of my grades, or the amount of work..
maybe due to insomnia or a combination of everything..
excruciating pain in the mind, i wasn't built for it.. Mentally not as strong as my age determines..
Don't let it happen again, better not.. or i'll be back in the slump few years ago..
May crying be the opening, tearing be the magic, sleeping be the drawing of curtains and waking up as the applause..
*suppressed by all these childish fears
why is this happening?
i thought i walked out of the circle 4 yrs ago..
Reminiscing it seems, hope's not..
The first relapse occurred last week
information gathered in the wrong way
and transmit through nerves and eventually smack right onto my heart..
it's worst than an asthma attack,
information that leads to nowhere haunting me..
it's like an injection of temporary depression shot right into the heart..
Head's experiencing migraine, eyes are heavy, throat's dry, hands & legs weak, knees wobbling
Perhaps it's not what i think it is, probably because of my grades, or the amount of work..
maybe due to insomnia or a combination of everything..
excruciating pain in the mind, i wasn't built for it.. Mentally not as strong as my age determines..
Don't let it happen again, better not.. or i'll be back in the slump few years ago..
May crying be the opening, tearing be the magic, sleeping be the drawing of curtains and waking up as the applause..
*suppressed by all these childish fears
what we could have been, 7:57 PM.
